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Sunday, September 21, 2008

Turning

There's so much going on these days I can hardly keep up with myself!

Life gets busy and I stop blogging...

I met with the new group that I'm looking to study with and had some tea. We talked, and talked, and talked-well, mostly I talked which is really strange for me. It's a rare thing when I am with someone who I feel I can speak with freely. Most especially on the subject of spirituality and other such things. I can b.s. with just about anyone on 'every day' topics but I find it's best to keep silent on a majority of things I want to say. I didn't used to care about being inflammatory, and it's not as though I worry about what others think of me now it's that I have realized one doesn't have to shout from the rooftops to validate themselves to others. I am who I am and while that seems to be left of center I'll just keep that as a tasty little treat for 'others' to discover with time as opposed to slapping them in the face with it.

I've been having a hard time finding time to squeeze in my spiritual practice. I've been meaning to start meditating every morning & exercising again as well. This last week I was lucky if I got up & to work on time. I'm naturally a night person and my job definitely caters to that proclivity.

A good chunk of the things on my to-do list have been taken care of these last couple of weeks tho so it should be a little easier to get going on that front.

I will be starting a week long fast on monday per orders from my holistic doctor. I had a series of tests done and he has determined that my blood sugar is to blame for all of my health woes. According to the tests I'm very nearly diabetic. My body does not process sugar correctly thus the insane weight gain, low energy, headaches, joint aches, skin problems, and a myriad of other things. So, we are going to start taking some steps to get me put right. Firstly I have to start losing weight and exercising. Those two things just so happen to be my first priority as well. I found that this week while I've been 'gearing up' for this fast I've been drawn to indulging in my favorite foods because this is the 'last time' I'll be able to have them. Damn. I'm a food junkie. I love pasta! Oh well, I like my health more...(says the girl who is getting ready to exist on what is loosely called a smoothie but in reality is flavored powder in water for an entire week.)

Wish me luck.