Happy Holidays!
Looks like I've got some catching up to do!
I got thrown out of orbit this last couple of weeks and am just now getting back to...well, everything.
This has been the strangest month and I suspect the Moon is the culprit. On December 12 we experienced the closest full moon since 1993. If one were to doubt the influence of the full moon (as well as new moon) they might do well to take note of the extra high spring tides along the ocean shoreline. The effects of the full moon were exaggerated this month due to the proximity of the Moon to Earth and I was feeling it for sure.
In short, I was a wreck. My emotions were ping-ponging around inside of me creating a nervous energy that was tiring and stressful. I was a little shocked at some of the things that came out of my mouth. I cried. And I cried. A lot. My body ached, I've had a neck & back ache accompanied by a headache for the bulk of the month so far.
Coming to the understanding that it was the lunar energy that was spinning me out I wonder if I knew more about attuning my energy if I couldn't have processed all of that differently and seen more positive effects. I suppose in 8 years I'll be far enough along in my Witchy ways that I'll be ready.
Oh, and did I mention- my birthday was on the 13th?
Not a good day. I'll spare you the details but every intention to make it a joyous occasion fell through. Even when I resigned myself to the idea that it would just be a day for catching up on errands and getting things & stuff accomplished....no go. In the end I just ended up going home, crawling back into bed and crying for the next few hours.
Alas, do not fret-
The light at the end of the tunnel for that day was weed & booze. I decided the best course of action was to smoke as much as I needed to elevate my mood. I rolled up my sleeves and went to work. Sounds of water bubbling and coughing filled the night. Ultimately, success. A nice long conversation with my mom helped as well.
My man friend had to work that day and was intent on taking me out to dinner afterward to which I had protested, crying in the restaurant on my birthday just seemed too pathetic. Now that Mary Jane would be joining me I was bolstered and thought I just might be able to go and possibly enjoy myself. It pretty much mostly worked. I wasn't joyous but I managed not to cry and take down two stiff drinks (top shelf mojito & long island ice tea) as well as a piece of spectacular cheesecake. I do love cheesecake.
I missed three days of work when my 'monthly visitor' arrived. I was in so much pain and so emotional I could hardly stand myself. I had to cancel a full week of appointments. Hmmmm, happy holidays indeed. I am looking forward to my vacation that will be starting in two days. Once I'm on that jet plane I'll really be flying high.
On another note, I am going to be having my Dedication ritual with my mentor on Jan. 9th. Yikes. I've got so much work to do for that I'll be working hard during vacation but at least that's all I'll be focusing on. Besides fun, I'll be focused on that too. Oh, and I've got to pick my witch name as well. I've got a couple of ideas I'm tossing around....that's a toughie.
Any pointers on how to choose? Any resources anyone would like to name? I'm all ears. (I love that saying ;)
A very sincere wish for bountiful blessings for all the world over, may each and every person on this earth know love and banish fear~
~Happy Holidays~
