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Saturday, April 2, 2011

I'm trying. I really am.

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This has been such a trying week.  Another surgery to correct a problem that sprang up from the last one and on the exact same day of my surgery our truck died.  Then my lovin' man went out of town the next day.  So here I sit, all alone with another fucking catheter for a week (two days to go till I get checked out to see if it can come out) and no vehicle.  Damn.  I just don't even know what to say about all of this except DAMN.  I know it will all work out and that everything will be fine in the end but it really was starting to look like we were pulling it together and making some progress with our health & our money saving.  Now they have both taken a big dive and again I'm sitting here dazed in the wake of destruction.  There's so much research and such that I could be doing while I'm stuck at home sitting on my ass but to tell you the truth I've been so dazed and so blue all I seem to be able to do is watch Bollywood movies and read books with swarthy pirates.  I've really got to pull myself together.