musing....

All of a sudden I find that I've finally got some time to myself.

It is so rare that I have time alone. For one we live in a teeny tiny one bedroom apartment and the other is that I work with my fiance. Every errand, everything we usually do together. One might find it ironic that I am reveling in being alone on Valentine's Day but I guess I'm cool with it because besides loving him, I love myself too.

Plus, I give him far more loving attention than I do myself. I work out nearly every day now which I feel like is giving myself love....a, uh...strict sort of love...but it's for my well being after all. That's really about it.

So I laid in bed and read this morning. Glorious. A good day starts with being able to rejoice in the silky smoothness of being in bed. It's my favorite piece of furniture.

Now what?

A Long Time Coming (home)

One year. One day.

I'm a student again (formally) and I am so excited and so proud. I can honestly say I am proud of myself for making this happen. Or maybe I should say for allowing it to happen. I know for sure that the path to Witchcraft was paved by the Goddess and God. Too many things all came together in the right sequence to see it any other way. Amazingly I was smart enough and determined to take all the right steps. Steps home.

This whole experience has given me irrefutable belief that reincarnation exists. Sure I've been working on getting here my whole life with every experience and all of the soul searching I've done. Yet as I learn 'new' things I realize that while I know I haven't come across it previously I totally understand it and know right away if it is something I personally believe. I haven't told Swan this, she might think I'm being arrogant. The facts & details of the above mentioned things isn't necessarily clear but I recognize ideas/philosophies instantly some times, more often it happens over a period of a few hours. I don't know, I'm not very good at explaining it I think...

Swan is the most amazing mentor ever. She is everything I could wish for in a teacher. She is one of the only people I've ever felt is truly genuine. She truly lives as she believes. I know she isn't necessarily perfect but I gotta tell you she seems pretty perfect to me so far. And the most impressive thing is that it has been a work in progress. She has struggled but in the end she was able to consciously change herself into the person she wanted to be. Her sincere self. Genuine self. With her will and her own personal power she has sculpted her life. She embodies the word Witch.

This is a truly transformative path I am walking, walking for exactly a year and a day.


Then I'll run.